i started to realized..



something may seems easy for me and i can take it.
but,




it may not necessary so for others.





it is the same..
when there is something seems nothing actually for certain people,
but i just couldn't take it.
and i would cry for months just because of that.






and, thus,
i more aware of someone behaviors now.







and yea.. it takes time.



it really takes time.




"all your life you are told the things you cannot do.
all your life they will say you're not good enough
or strong enough or talented enough;

they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight
or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this.

they will tell you no, a thousand times no,
until all the no's become meaningless.

all your life they will tell you no,
quite firmly and very quickly.
and you will tell them yes."







if our God is for us, who can be against us?








and yes, we have our own reasons and excuses for our acts despite bad or good,wise or stupid.
we couldn't help but to behave so.



like.. sometimes, i could stay up late just for a stupid reason..
or cry alone in the bathroom just for a thing that is so unworthy..
or get mad suddenly and refuse to talk for whole day long..
or decide to leave just because of someone.. o yeah, i did that once before.
or give up myself just because i think it is enough and i had enough.
yea i would give up myself. i would refuse to pray, to read bible, to worship God, to listen to God.
thats the worst thing i could ever do to myself.
is stupid, when u happen to know why am i so.
u would call me "stupid, it doesn't worth at all!"

sigh.












but..












the matter of alls,
is just we lack of God's word,
that is why we can't stand firm and straight when the storm coming.
that is why we stumbled easily.
that is why I would want to run away when i can't find way to fix my problems.





but, God is always there, for us.
He is waiting for us to grab His mighty hand,
to hide under His wings,
to soar with Him above the storm.
and again, He is telling us, to FEAR NOT.



and again, i told myself,
"all things work together for good to those who love God,
to those who are the called according to His purpose."



and again, i reminding myself,
"He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."




and so, i just want to tell you this,
we all have our problems to deal with.
big or small,
we still need to deal with.
don't tell me you can't deal with your problems,
don't tell that i don't understand what you had been through,
don't tell me that i am not you, so i just have to shut my mouth up.
and don't tell me "hey stop pretending u know all things, u just don't know"



i am not here to lecture u. i am lecturing myself.
but i hope u can listen as well. because i do care u.


and,
yes i may don't know, i may don't understand. because is true i am not u.
but i know, we have the same God, don't we?


our God is faithful. He is always faithful.
Time we are faithless, He will remain faithful.



"God of my forever and forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever and forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King"



we are given the ability to solve the problems.
u and me just need a lil bit more faith to Him.
He is our God. He shall take care of us.



1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.




there is no hardship or a problem that is bigger enough that our God can't fix it.
all we have to do is just take a simple one step towards Him,
and He will RUN 1000000000++++ steps towards us.
He is our God.
i telling u, i telling myself too.



1 John 4:4
You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.



"God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for you has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “well done”
Bowing before Your throne"





no matter how,
no matter how depressed we are,
no matter how the world,
how the people around us disappointed us,
no matter how and we just but want to throw all the blames on God,
His promises never fades.
His grace is sufficient to us, for His power is made perfect in weakness.


we just have to have lil more faith and cling on to all that His says.
He will never leave us nor forsake us.



2 Corinthians 4:7-9
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.




anyone can give up.
it's the easiest thing in the world to do.
but to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart,
that's true strength.





till here..
and i just realized,
we need faith.
to God.
in everything.
for everything.





"Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way"







Count on God.
and,



Be still, friend, for we know He is our God. Be still.
and i promise i would never do again what i had been done to you.
and i promise i will walk with you throughout this learning journey.


and,
i don't care how u gonna deal with problems.
at times, i also gave up when i lose out all the strength to face them.
at times, i just feel want to withdraw myself from everything.
but it doesn't matter, i know God is always faithful,
and He shall pull me up again. He is my strength.





but..
please don't deal it in SUCH a way that u clearly know what isit.
please don't.










and last but not least,



we always sing forever to God,
but.. we need faith to really "work out" that forever with God.
we always say we love God and we will love Him till the end of the world,
in fact, it is God who first love us,
and we need faith to love God.
we have to believe first God is exist and He is our God, Christ Jesus.
how to love God if we don't believe there is any?
and how to believe if we don't have faith?


and faith comes from hearing the message,
and the message is heard through the word of Christ.




so,



start reading bible ~~ :) is good for us.


and you do remember God's phone number right?
Jer 33:3

One simple phone call to God,
everything will be fixed perfectly. :)

sound so easy?
yea tats right. He is Mighty to save. ;)


but then ho,
God fix thing in His way.


so ler ho,
the hardest part is..
to wait patiently with a good attitude. =X


eh, no free stuff given in this world k.
except salvation of God.

Bersabarlah kawan. =)