there is so much i wanna write..



but..



it seems.


i don't know where should i start first. =X



or maybe just randomly scribbled out any thing i had in my mind. =)

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for the past few days, or weeks (im not quite sure how long has it been :S)


i kept pondering over one matter, deeply.






isit now the right time for me to accept and start a new relationship?

should i give the new relationship a try?





actually, the answer is quite obvious when the following questions came across..



have i recovered from past relationship?

have i healed from wound?






Apparently, NO. :)



maybe is still long way to go before letting myself to get attached again.
and..

it's been almost a year..
yet,
i still...



sigh.



how ironically to think that i was the one who give up first...
yet,
i am...



sigh.




somehow,
i have this fear in me that,
how if i just can't get over even when after so many many years?


:(



that is why,
i don't want stay in this city.

that is why,
i wanna leaving.

and to tell the truth,
i really looking forward to my graduation day. :)


it means,
i am finally officially free to leave Kuching!!




is just this one little thing,
i am so gonna miss my church super duper pretty much. :'(



and so,
this is me, the weak me,
there is thing that you can take it, but i can't.
just pray for me if you want. :) thankss~~

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oops.. is getting late now.

so,
kita sambung lagi tomorrow.

good night. :)


and oh ya..
i laughed lots today over something. hehehe.. x)



and thus,
i decided to give myself some more times,
to really search and find myself back,
and to wait for the really right ones.


the one that i had kept in my prayer. all the time.

1 Corinthians 13 ~ Love ^ The Greatest Gift

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

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*Mr Right & Ms Right =D* { ..緣份是找到包容你的人 .. }

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跟你在一起越久的人，就越容易麻木與忽視，

而新鮮的「際遇」總是那麼動人可愛。

在感情對待中，難免有摩擦與無心的傷害，

而且論得罪自己的次數累加起來最多的人，

當然是跟我們在一起最久、最親近的人；

　

而新歡呢，又還沒開始有得罪你的機會，

再加上她的刻意討好，所以新歡怎麼看怎麼可愛，

舊愛怎麼看怎麼討厭。


但別忘了，新歡身上總是有不確定的未知數，

舊愛身上就是有難得的熟悉感、確定感、信賴感。

千萬不要隨便在偶然的「際遇」中迷失了自己，

錯放了幸福溫暖的手。


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