the day after tomorrow..

it will be a brand new year again.


time really passed fast, i think.


and this year, has really been a fruitful year for me.



i met mabum,
i met bii bii,
i met linda,
i met madeline,
i met sa sa,
i met winnie,
i met kylie~,
i met ying,
i met shan shan,
i met Vv,
i met didi,
i met Thangz~,
i met james,
i met Tiff,
i met Isaac & Joel, funny nigerians. lolx.
i met ... oh tats so many more..
but for the people that i can write out their name means their impression to me is deep.


and also,
i got to know some people more.
ppl like Xuan, Francis, Xueer, eileen..


but there were also people that i have to let go..

ppl like.. nvm just forget it.



i wandered,
if time really changes everything.







i cherish friends like Q and yam :)
although we seldom contact each other,
although we are apart,
although we possessed our own close friends now,

but no matter what it is,
our friendship still last long,
the carings never stop,
and we remained in each other heart.







i really get annoyed when ppl tell me i changed
just because of i less find or contact them compare to before.

don't doubt me,
i still me, myself and I, the person that u know.
if u knew me as a person that care and love u,
well, I still the same.

unless u know that i dislike u. lolx.






i told him my decision that night.
in fact, it really pricked my heart to made that.

and..
last Sunday,
i really did.

i knew he realized it.



i am sorry,
but i just cant take it anymore.

i guess,
the most hurtful memory on 2008 is u.








because i din even cry.








yesterday i had fun at a place far away from here.

with some ppl from church,
and my sweet lil cousins~
and my aunt treat us seafood. hiak hiak xD


it was a good and happy day~
i was so exhausted already after few days working -.-

too bad i don't know how to swim. :(




and too sad i wished u were there.









i wish i know what's inside ur heart..








i know i dont hate,
but on this coming year,
i dont want to dislike anyone too.anymore.


or maybe i should act like i like even if i dislike? like how others did?

i quite amazed by some people,
at the back they can criticize about someone,
or say how much they dislike the person,

but when meet face to face,
aiyo, can act like nothing one,
still can smile and laugh and play together -.-

i din say it is not good.

i just wish i could have this ability to act.
and maybe.. i can learn how to.
so that.. more peaces and loves around.



dont worry,
i wont critize u yet like u at the same time.
if i were act to like,
means i would stop talking about u "badness".



and to holy people,
say whatever u ppl want,
i have no time to mind it.




i never want to try to be holy,
i am not perfect,
i just try to be better. and better.
i may make mistake,
but tats between me and God.
u can critize,
but tats also between u and God,
whats between u and me,
is just either forgive or go away.
as simple as that.

i dont like complicated.



but weird,
ppl often said me complicated. -.-



never mind.







2009,
a year to learn how to love with God's love.


God, You are a faithful God.
please lead me through and show me the way.
the way where You want me to be.
guide me guide me guide me and guide me.
i truly need You!







they said,
to cure hatred,
is to have a grateful heart.







i thank for everything that happens in my life.from the bottom of my heart.















really.









and..
if u happen to read this,
i want to tell u that,
i am sorry if i never did like u,
from the first time we met, till now.

i am sorry but i dont feel comfortable wit u since the first sight.

and when u finally did something that caused a great pain in my life,
i know i really dislike u.




u are mean and selfish.
and i know u never want to admit,
but u always try to seek attention. really.


i ever tried to accept u and love u, not just once but many times,
but..


i never understand,
why u still can be so mean to hurt me.
but i know,
u would not admit u ever did.


in ur concept,
u just be urself.
and stay as who u are is never wrong.


i wander if that has make u into a selfish girl.
which ignore others feeling.





never mind.
i dont mind already.


i just want to tell u that,
next year onwards,

i dont dislike u again. i cant say i like u though. just no more dislike.


but..

the distance is to be keep btw us.

( i guess, if u read, u know who u are)













2009..

i love You, Jesus. :) You are an awesome God!

2009 will be a better year,
i will be a better me.





ObeDEdom shall breakthrough, and multiplied!
many lives will be transformed.
and more testimonies are to bring out.
and all glories to God!










may God blesses lots.









one more thing,
love me not for who i am or what i have ever did for u,
but love me because of who u are.
i know u are the person that love me. aint u?
:) muacks.


















important notes:
1) I MISS HANGING OUT WITH DARLING BII AND FRIENDS!! >:(
2) I WANT GO SHOPPING SOON TO BUY NEW CLOTHES!! AND SHOES!
3) A SHIRT OF MINE ROSAK JOR! AND I JUST WEAR IT ONE TIME ONLY! >:(
4) I WANT GO OUT WITH SA SA!!
5) FRANCIS STUPIAK! XP
6) I DONT KNOW WHY MY PREPAID CREDIT RAN OUT SO FAST RECENTLY!! >:(
7) I WANT GO TO WORK SOON!!! ><
8) I WANT GO BANK GET MY $$ OUT! NO MONEY SPENT OREDY! ><
9) I MISS HIM!!! THIS REALLY STUPIAK! >:( >:(