my heart sank.
it sank even further when i know something that i dont wish to know at all but i couldnt help to know it.
there is this deep hole,
i try to climb out.
but to no avail.
i want to give up.
not give up of myself. or God. or love ones.
but give up of this place.
i found hopeless.
i dont want to explain for myself anymore.
neither do i want to protest.
i dont give a damn to what people say about me at my back, especially those i don't know them.
and nor do they know me.
but i feel hurt. hurt. hurt. and hurt.
when people who knw me and who occupy an important place in my heart, they dont trust me.
it is true ppl will disappoint us,
and we too, will disappoint others.
fair and square.
but.. i can't help.
i feel sad and hurt. :(
have i done wrong?
or everything i do is wrong?
:'(
Dear God,
i have try my best not to care about those things.
i have try my best to let go of something.
i have try my best to be "big hearted"
i have try my best to do my best.
i have try my best to put others before me.
i dont expect there is a return.
but,
i dont want a misunderstanding too. :(
why they want to think the other way round about me? :(
nevermind..
time will reveal all things out.
1 Corinthians 13 ~ Love ^ The Greatest Gift
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
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*Mr Right & Ms Right =D* { ..緣份是找到包容你的人 .. }
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跟你在一起越久的人，就越容易麻木與忽視，
而新鮮的「際遇」總是那麼動人可愛。
在感情對待中，難免有摩擦與無心的傷害，
而且論得罪自己的次數累加起來最多的人，
當然是跟我們在一起最久、最親近的人；
而新歡呢，又還沒開始有得罪你的機會，
再加上她的刻意討好，所以新歡怎麼看怎麼可愛，
舊愛怎麼看怎麼討厭。
但別忘了，新歡身上總是有不確定的未知數，
舊愛身上就是有難得的熟悉感、確定感、信賴感。
千萬不要隨便在偶然的「際遇」中迷失了自己，
錯放了幸福溫暖的手。
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